The month of May is almost over, and I haven’t even acknowledged Mental Health Awareness Month. Throughout this year, there have been a few opportunities I’ve missed to share my heart and God’s heart on this platform He has given me. It’s something I’ve thought about for quite a while.

It’s not for lack of ideas, stirrings within, or a lack of what God has wanted to do this year. I have simply gotten used to not stirring the gift God has given me to write.

There are times when there are mental, emotional, and life change reasons why a pattern change can occur, and this awareness month has thankfully lowered the stigma of examining those causes. But sometimes, there’s a frankness and honesty needed to declare when something is not being done right.

I believe what I’m writing and releasing here today speaks to the latter reason. Yes, there was a season in life where transition took place (marriage, home, etc.,) and there was a need to value the changing seasons. Sometimes, there’s time to produce, harvest, rest, or even a Fallow season. However, I’ve gotten to the point where I’ve lacked the right discipline in my life that it has negatively impacted my desire to write, create, and publish on this platform that God has given me to steward.

Accountability and honesty are needed to say that I’ve dropped the ball. No, there’s no condemnation for those in Christ, but there is conviction that I must embrace. God is intimately involved in our thought life, and that includes when our thoughts and thought processes aren’t right. This also takes the help of the family of God beyond me.

My wife has been the first to point this out to me, and I thank her for how much of a blessing she is to my life. God has used her as a mirror to me, and frankly, even with that mirror, I’ve been so distracted that I still went back to my love of comfort. So I want to publicly honor that.

I also desire to hear from you, the reader. I want to thank you for taking the time and space to hear my heart all of the years I’ve shared here. I ask for your prayers and encouragement as I take steps to be accountable with what I’ve been called to steward in my life.

This year is a special year for Thoughts Of Redemption, as we approach the 10th anniversary this August. It has been ten years of God’s faithfulness and grace poured out all over this, and it is my desire and goal to steward it in the best way as He gives me the grace to.

So happy Mental Health Awareness month, and let us continue to celebrate the process of thought and God’s hand in it!